• How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Make My Fear My Bitch Lover

    I am playing with my band onstage in a small club, under blue and red lights. I feel a tug at the hem of my shirt. I try to ignore it and stay with the words I’m singing and the notes I’m playing. But the insistent tugs continue – in fact, they become even more frequent and strong – and they succeed in pulling me out of where I want to be. I struggle to keep looking forward, keep focusing on the task at hand. The tugs turn into yanks, and then a constant tapping on my shoulder. I cannot bear to look back at this force that must be…

  • Will Jardell of America’s Next Top Model: This Crazy Adventure All Started Right Here

    Photography: Tyler Tyndell for ANON Magazine issue 1 Clothes: Doodles Homme Stylist/MUA: Becky Bacsik First off I want to thank ANON for practically jump starting my career!  It was in May 2012 when I was asked to be a part of a photo shoot for ANON Magazine and the images from that day are what Tyra Banks liked and got me on America’s Next Top Model.  So thank you ANON from the bottom of my heart for giving me something I can never repay you for. My life has been a whirlwind of emotions. Growing up gay, being a dancer, and being raised Catholic are three things that don’t provide…

  • What Would You Do?

    I’m sad to say that the following story isn’t one of my own, but when I heard it, I found it so bizarre that I had to tell everyone somehow. I heard this funny story while I was sitting and eating with one of my roommates, and, although I won’t be able to do the account justice, I was laughing my head off. My roommate began by telling me that after college, one of her sister’s good friends decided to uproot her life, and move to New York for a taste of the fast life. We will refer to this person as “Jane” for lack of knowing her actual name.…

  • Awkward Situations Anonymous

    Somehow, no matter how much precaution I take, I am unable to avoid the inevitable awkwardness that pops up in my everyday life. I’ve become accustomed to blank stares and confused faces, so it doesn’t bother me that much anymore, but every so often I’ll be in a situation that, when reflected on, brings shame and thoughts like, “why me?” to my mind. Back in high school, I worked with a guy, let’s call him “Philip.” He was older than me, and had quite the mature aura about him. I had a little middle school girl crush on him, which I would have never admitted back then. Occasionally, we would…

  • Parental Approval: How Far Is Too Far?

    Since I’ve been in college nearly two years and I’ve moved away from home, I’ve seen changes in my mindset.  It happens to everyone, we all end up moving away from home, and then realize that the decisions we want to make don’t exactly match up with the ideals of our parents, even though they used to.  I love my parents. I respect them more than anyone, and I’ve honestly only been grounded once in my entire life.  If there were a child more loyal than I, they would probably have the names of their parents branded into their skin by now.  Something that I’ve realized as I move into…

  • A Few Easy Steps To De-Stress Your Life

    We all have days when our anxiety is at an ultimate high, and we can’t focus on anything. There might be too much going wrong, or just too much in general. When you find yourself in this type of situation, you should reflect on these tips and tricks to help you calm down and tackle whatever life has thrown your way.             Usually, when I get stressed out, it’s because I’ll all of a sudden remember a bunch of stuff that I have to do, and start to feel like I don’t have enough time for everything. I’ll then end up in a panic attack instead of being productive. What…